For once, I'm not blaming hormones

I'm feeling really miserable at the moment.
One minute, I feel like running over someone over and over again.
Another, I feel like crying so hard til my tears dry out.
At first I think I'm just PMS-ing but come to think about it, it's actually because of a few things happening and not happening the way I want them to be.

1. I'm coming down with a fever. AGAIN! There's a burning sensation everytime I swallow something (even saliva) & that totally sucks!

2. I still don't know where I'll be stationed at. It's the same answer EVERY SINGLE DAY since last week that I just stopped asking. Tomorrow? The day after tomorrow? Whatever. Won't make a difference anymore.

3. I was ignored by someone I was really looking forward to talk to. And he didn't even leave me an offline message. Would it kill u to do just that? Bottomline is, I don't like being ignored. Doesn't matter who the person is.

4. I'm well aware that i'm gaining weight but so far, am not doing anything about it. I hate looking at my reflection in the mirror lately but I just can't stop stuffing my face & I despise that feeling. How do I expect someone to love what they see when me, myself is loathing it?

Phew, that's a relief.
Now that the cat is out of the bag, I'm feeling a wee bit better.
I'm off for a shower & thinking of hitting the sack early tonight. Hopefully when I wake up I won't feel as crappy as I do now.

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