Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Employee of the month(s)

The first time I was informed, I really thought they were just joking.
But when a few more colleagues (and bosses) came to congratulate me, that made me think there must some truth in it. Right?
They won't be so mean to make something like that up.

And so it was true.
Today during our office's Majlis Perhimpunan Setia & Warga, I was awarded Anugerah Pegawai Contoh 'Tiru Macam Saya' for the period of January until June 2015.😊

Working in the GST division is definitely full of challenges.
If it wasn't for the guidance & knowledge shared by my superiors, I wouldn't be receiving this today.
InsyaAllah this will be a driving force for me to be at my best at work & in life.
I am eternally grateful for the recognition & appreciation given.
And that's all for my receiving speech.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Back on track (hopefully)

Can't believe my last entry was more than half a year ago. 😲

Work has been super crazy and exhaustion would be my new middle name.
It got so bad that I believe I lost few of my brain cells in the process. 😷

The worst was when my colleague & I missed our flight from Bintulu to Kuching.
Not because we were late but because all the while we both believed our flight was at 2.30pm when actually it was at 12.30pm!
We both thought that we arrived early at the airport & when we tried to check in our luggage, it was already 12.36pm. 😑

After leaving our names on the waiting list for the next flight at 4.10pm, we got some lunch and waited and waited.

About 3.30 we went to the counter again to check on our chances of boarding the 4.10pm flight and we encountered the most annoying staff ever!😤
It was a young man but he was so soft spoken we can't barely hear what he was saying and we had to ask him to repeat himself a few times but still he sounded the same with no facial expression.
He was practically whispering to us in a noisy airport!
It got so bad we had to ask another staff at the next counter to get the information we wanted.

We got lucky & managed to board the 4.10pm flight. Transit for 20 minutes in Sibu and reached Kuching approximately 5.50pm.

I just hope I won't come across him or anyone similar in the future.
Once is enough.😒

Monday, April 21, 2014

2 years and counting

To my Imam,
Best friend,
Love machine.


I love you with all my heart.
Thank you for loving me & accepting my flaws.
My biggest dream is for us to grow old together.
Til Jannah.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Beauty conscious

Turning 31 *gasps* in a few months is really making me anxious.

So in my pathetic attempt to relive my glorious teenage years, I decided to give this beauty supplement a try.

Known as KColly Sweet 17 which I think stands for Korean Collagen to look like 17 again yoohoo!

Read good reviews about it, even Nur Fathia, the Arianna Rose swears by it. 

Bought it online from Zueboutique in Instagram for RM120 inclusive poslaju and it arrived today.

Actually I did find another seller who sells it for RM95 but because she wasn't friendly I didn't buy it from her.

Zuera on the other hand is a people person & that's how sellers should treat their potential customers. 

She delivers quick service & she also sells a lot of other beauty stuff which a few I got them for free. Another bonus point for her.

What are you waiting for? Follow her on Instagram now and maybe we can look & feel 17 together!


Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Law Of Attraction

Once I bought kain pelikat in Serikin just because I liked the colour.
I was single so obviously I didn't have anyone to give it to.
There was a guy I liked but it would be weird to give your crush kain pelikat right?

So I kept it til the right one comes along.
And so he did.
It made me smile everytime I see my husband wears it to perform his solat.

Fast forward a few years, I did it again.
I just bought myself these cute Tommee Tippee baby bottles because the colour is to die for!
Even if I have a boy in the future, he will use it and be the trendiest baby in the block.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Between Expectations and Reality

"When are you going to have a baby? (Insert name here) just gave birth. U got married before her didn't u?"

"It's almost 2 years right? How come u're still not pregnant?"

On good days i just smiled & answered, "Belum rezeki."
On bad days, I swear I've murdered them a few times in my head, still with a smile on my face.
What? You expect everyone to get it right on the first try?
The nerve of some people.

To be honest, during early months of marriage, I wanted to conceive so bad that any signs of nausea or a little lightheadedness will send me running to the toilet to get my UPT done.
And each and everytime it's negative.
Couldn't help but break down and cry a little inside.

'Was it because I'm overweight making me infertile?'

'Or because my menstrual cycle is irregular so the timing was always off?'

'What did we do wrong?'

All kinds of questions in my head.
I was so caught up with the idea of being a mother that I felt worthless & I have let everyone especially my husband down when I didn't.

That depressed feeling lasted for months.
In which I looked for strength in any form that I could to not let it go over my head and got worse.
Love from my husband & prayers helped but I needed more.
I wanted reassurance, something I can hold on to.
Then I came across THAT something.
It's a saying that goes;

"Allah never promised that every married couple will have children of their own".

That sentence really got me thinking.
Who are we to question God's plan?
If I am meant to be a mother, I will be.
If not now, maybe later.
But if I'm not, there's nothing I could do about it.
Children are REZEKI from Allah, maybe ours is in other forms.
He always knows what's best for everybody.
And I am holding on to that.

I can't deny the feeling of jealousy I have towards those with children.
Especially those who made making babies look so easy, like they are not even trying.
At times when I'm alone, I rub my empty belly and just imagine how it feels to have a life living inside me.
I just hope one day I don't have to imagine it anymore.
But for now, I should concentrate on being a better wife.
I may not be a mother but I am my own person, this is my life & I should not let others make me feel less of a woman.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I'm back!

Going to sleep in excitement tonight cause hubby and I are leaving for KK tomorrow.
We bought the tickets during one of AirAsia's free tickets promotion last July, for a little under rm150.
Why KK?
Cause i just love the place & hubby has never been there.
We plan to stay a night in Kundasang & the remaining 3 nights in KK.
What's better is my brother & his family will also be there.
Double woot!
Such a coincidence that we chose the same date to go to the same place.
So i need to get some shuteye for i need to wake up again in 6 hours time.
Hopefully this trip will go smoothly & we both enjoy our honeymoon, for the umpteenth time.

PS: We got engaged on this date 2 years ago. How time flies. *sigh dreamily*

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

long weekend with dearest

Day 1

boarded a plane to KL with besties Fieza & Bobet last Thursday.
the trip actually wasn't planned, we just bought it because the flight tickets were cheaper.
and because it wasn't planned, we didn't even remember 24th was a public holiday.
Alhamdulillah we managed to grab the first flight out at 7 am. :)

we arrived at LCCT at 8.25am, way ahead from schedule.
got a bbm from hubby saying he can't pick me up at KL Sentral cause he was extremely tired and he had a bad headache (he just came back from Cameron Highlands the day before).
i was pretty upset cause i was so anxious to see him.
and yes, i sulked.
didn't even wanna talk when he called.
to my surprise, he was at the arrival gate waiting for me.
turn out he was already there at 8 am waiting for us.
i was so geram but happy at the same time.

took the bus to KL Sentral and we parted ways there as Fieza & Bobet will be staying at Fieza's friend, Jijah's place.
we just stayed at home that day, spending quality time together, catching up on things we missed while being apart from each other.

Day 2

hubby had been going on and on about nasi kandar he had in Penang so i thought why not we try out one here in KL.
had nasi kandar at Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita, Jalan Ampang.
not as good as the one in Penang i was told but nice nevertheless.

next destination: KLCC.
went to Charles & Keith for their handbags but most of them are neon!
i don't think i could ever rock neon.
went to Vincci but devastated they didn't have what i wanted in my size.

next stop: Jalan Masjid India & Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman.
for their hijabs obviously.
met up with bffs here while hubby went for Friday prayers.
grabbed 3 hijabs while waiting for hubby.
when he came back, we parted ways with the girls.
it rained really heavily, we had to take shelter and buy an umbrella at Semua House.
i had to buy flats cause my wedges is killing me.

being married now, definition of shopping is completely different.
it's now: decide what u want, where to get it, make purchase.
no more browsing and comparing prices at different places.
pretty much like how the guys do it.
less time it takes, the better.

in spite of the crazy crowd, i managed to grab this in less than 20 minutes at KL Sogo.
thanks syg! *hugs*

after KL Sogo, took the komuter to Mid Valley, my must-go-to-shopping-mall.
finally found the wedges i wanted in my size at Vincci. *cheers*
bought Ima's wedding present at AEON and Andika's milk bottle at Mothercare.
happy with all the purchases, we walked to the bus stop to wait for the bus.

we waited for the U72 bus to get home at Taman Abadi Indah.
it was still raining mildly and after 20 minutes our bus came.
immediately there was a huge crowd forming towards the bus door.
hubby went in front to secure a place for us but i got shoved to the back of the line and there was an old lady in front of me who was moving oh so slowly.
hubby managed to board the bus but i didn't.
so when he tried to get off the bus, the rude and inconsiderate driver closed the door.
on his arms!
if it wasn't for other people on the bus screaming for him to open the door, the driver would have drove off.
Alhamdulillah it was nothing serious.
but i still blame myself because if it wasn't for me, if i had boarded the bus, he wouldn't get hurt like that. 

Day 3

Leona picked us up at KL Sentral to attend Ima's wedding at Dewan Dato' Ahmad Razali, Jalan Ampang.
Got there before 1pm, the couple arrived at 1.30pm.
unlike 'pengilan' in Kuching, here, guests came, eat & leave.
sometimes without waiting to see the bride & groom.
after taking lots of picture together with the bride & groom, the three of us headed home.
Leo is lihai when it comes to driving!
i was relieved when we finally reached home. 
thanks for the ride babe! *hugs*

at night we had dinner with my brother, sis in law & their two children. 
when they came over, the children swarmed mr hubby like ants on sugar.
he always has that kind of effect with children, they just adore him. 
in the car, my brother asked where i wanted to have dinner.
since we're heading to Ikea & The Curve, Tony Roma's it is.
i have been craving for their ribs like forever.
amagad law of attraction really works!
we had lamb ribs slab, bountiful beef ribs.
it was A LOT! 
the four of us can't finish it.
after dinner, hubby and I went to Ikea to get few things for our future home. aiseh.
when i saw this at Ikea, i bought two sets. 
yes, i am a Tupperware & container crazed woman now. hahaha.
PRUTA food container: 17 units for RM14.90!

later we had hot drinks at The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf, The Curve and reached home around 12.30am.
thanks abang for buying us a wonderful dinner & taking us to my favourite place, Ikea. *hugs*

Day 4 

the day finally came for me to leave KL and hubby.
we stayed at home & spent as much quality time as possible.
he even cooked lunch for me.
since our flight was at 10.45pm and it'll be too late for him to reach home if he were to send me to LCCT, i insisted he sent me off at KL Sentral.
when i waved him goodbye from the bus and saw his sad face, i just can't control my tears anymore.
i'm even crying while typing this.
that's how much of a crybaby i am.
it breaks my heart every time we have to be separated.
i really don't know how other couples do it.
husbands & wives are supposed to be together, not apart like this.
only after i reached home around 1.30am, he finally went to bed.
i only managed to fall asleep around 3am cause it felt awkward sleeping on my own.
hoping & praying we won't have to sleep alone again.
cause it hurts real bad. :(

Thursday, January 17, 2013


of another online purchase.
this time from

please disregard the other package. will blog about it way later. ;)

a total sucker for maxi dresses, i just have to have this.
v-neck empire waist maxi dress in purple by a local brand, Aleena.
the package came in the mail yesterday afternoon.
and it's soooo prettyyyyyy.
why i love it?
it's made of cotton jersey.
details includes maxi, round neckline, long sleeves, contrast coloured detailing and empire waist with soft pleats.
can be used to hide bulging tummy and also baby bump.

this is not me. obviously. haha.

will update picture of me wearing it.

may this year be the start of something good & healthy

3 years ago i lost my brother to type 2 diabetes.
he was 33 and obese.
my parents take diabetic & hypertension medication every single day.
i am overweight, almost obese with 65.6kg for this 5 foot frame.
i always have this tingling sensation and sometimes numbness in my fingers, at times both hands.
this usually occurs everytime i noticed i have been indulging on extra chocolate, flavoured drinks and my favourite ice cream.
so i googled the tingling sensation & numbness as symptoms and this is what came up:

Numbness and tingling are abnormal sensations that can occur anywhere in your body, but are often felt in your fingers, hands, feet, arms, or legs.
There are many possible causes of numbness and tingling:
  • Sitting or standing in the same position for a long time
  • Injuring a nerve (a neck injury may cause you to feel numbness anywhere along your arm or hand, while a low back injury can cause numbness or tingling down the back of your leg)
  • Pressure on the nerves of the spine, such as from a herniated disk
  • Pressure on peripheral nerves from enlarged blood vessels, tumors, scar tissue, or infection
  • Shingles or herpes zoster infection
  • Lack of blood supply to an area (for example, from atherosclerosis or frostbite)
  • Other medical conditions, including:
  • Abnormal levels of calcium, potassium, or sodium in your body
  • A lack of vitamin B12 or other vitamin
  • Use of certain medications
  • Nerve damage due to lead, alcohol, or tobacco
  • Radiation therapy
  • Animal bites
  • Insect, tick, mite, and spider bites
  • Seafood toxins
what scares me the most would be the word DIABETES in the list. *insert horror music*
and because of my family history, i am at a higher risk of being diabetic *touch wood*
health is very important to me now more than ever because i have someone who cares and loves me a lot.
i just can't bear the thought of burdening my better half if i ever fallen sick.
apart from that, we do want a family of our own.
healthy, beautiful children.
and in order to conceive, i need to be healthy.
to be healthy, i need to start changing my lifestyle & eating habits.

with that in mind, i have made small changes, taking it one step at a time and hoping will maintain:
  • drank more plain water. right now i can only manage to drink 500ml, still very far from the 2 litre per day recommendation but i'm slowly getting there.
  • cut down on my ice cream intake to only one serving 3 times a week tops. i use to take it as desserts after every dinner, sometimes lunch and even supper when i'm really craving for them. @_@
  • stopped drinking carbonated drinks altogether. sometimes when i REALLY REALLY want it, i chose Light Coke instead of the regular coke. but only a few sips.
  • started taking breakfast. i usually skip the most important meal of the day, no wonder i ended up bingeing the rest of the day.
  • fastfood once a month. maybe, maybe one day i'll stop taking them altogether.
  • take multivitamins once a day cause i seldom eat veges & i choose the type of fruits i will eat.
  • take the stairs instead of the elevator as much as i can.
  • exercise more. started bowling again last Tuesday. and tennis tomorrow. i can't stand jogging for more than 5 minutes so brisk walking would be a good start.
but my setback would be:
  • junkfood. i love snacking so much. i need to munch on something all the timeeeeee. and snacks are usually high in sugar and sodium. :(
this time it's not just about the numbers on the scale anymore.
it's about having a higher chance of living a happy and fulfilling life without having to worry about medical bills & frequent visits to the hospital.
i'd choose that over anything, anytime.