Saturday, December 6, 2008

shocked+relieved+miserable

while rummaging through my stuff (did a little spring cleaning) i stumbled onto a name i have desperately left behind & tried so much to forget.

just the name would be ok, but there was his number as well!

it's been more than a year & i was so intrigued to know how he's been doing.

ego aside, i sent him a message (but i didnt tell him it was me though) & he replied and as the messages were exchanged, somehow i felt liberated.

FREE.

coz now i know he's doing great & i realised that i don't have the same feelings for him like before.

there wasn't the excitement of anticipating for his replies.

i finally had CLOSURE.

time had definitely healed me.

although i won't deny i still think of him at times but i m just going to concentrate on what i have now coz it is soo much better.

way better.

someone who appreciates me & makes me feel like i'm the most beautiful person in the world.

and i miss that someone today.

MISERABLY :(

4 hands in the air:

f.i.e.z.a said...

if im at ur place pun mek msg juak nya ko..ehhe..
lega la nak o.xhal.u have dat particular someone who really appreciates u n he's a lot better. :)

n i e z a said...

yalah,rugi x za.at least kmk tauk nya gne & i've told him what i've intended to say.ng ada hikmah ku ngemas bilit ritok tek.hehe..
yup,that particular someone is really something..:)

Felicia F. Ramzi said...

i feel proud of you..a good one

n i e z a said...

im proud of myself too.cant believe im actually strong enuf to finally get over him.now i can move on without thinking all the what ifs and if onlys.