one qurban i could never forget

*dusting off debris & spiderwebs off blog*
im really sorry for not updating.
i never thought anyone would notice my abscense but somebody actually did.
(^_^)

firstly, i'd like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all Muslims.
speaking of qurban, every year i always had flashbacks to when i was in secondary school.
unabashed, i'd like to share what happened on that one fateful day 11 years ago.
our school participated in the qurban of a few cows & goats at our school mosque.
after school session ended, my friends and i stopped by to watch the whole thing in progress.
as soon as i reached there, i immediately spotted a white cow, already lying on the ground, barely breathing.
with blood dripping from the cut on its neck, the bovine looked directly at me with tears in its eyes.
as if begging for mercy.
it was heart wrenching & tears started streaming down my cheeks.
not wanting my friends to know, i retreated far from the crowd but one actually noticed & asked whether i was ok or not.
i wasn't ok & i was still crying when i reached my room.
later in the evening, we had the qurban meat for dinner but i didn't have my dinner that day.
i didn't have the heart to.
friends keep telling that i was just being silly & that the cow died for a good cause but i just couldn't shake the sight of it from my head.
not until now.
i think i should go for therapy.
(T_T)