better in time

“I fell in love or I thought I did (my closest friends would have guessed who that person is by now). I liked this guy so much that I lowered myself just to make him happy. I did what he wanted & liked, never what I enjoyed but still, I hold on to him because in a very weird way, I believed we had a connection although we weren't even a couple. That continued for quite some time until one day I just had enough. I thought that if I was firm & I stuck to my principles and beliefs, he'd realized that I'm different, nothing like all the other girls he messed around with. I gave him an ultimatum & I demanded his respect. It didn't turn out like I expected & hoped, instead we lost contact ever since.”

That was an entry I wrote a year & three months back. Today I was granted with his latest news. News which was shocking but kind of expected coming from him. I wouldn’t say much about the news (demoralizing that’s the word) but what I can say is that he finally got what he deserved. Tempted as I was to taunt him with ‘serves u right’ & rubbing it in his face, deep down inside I feel sympathy for him because silly as it sounds I still care for this guy. But don’t call me foolish just yet, just because I care that doesn’t mean I want him back. Life had been tremendously great & I don’t intend to spoil it any time soon. He was my past & better he stays there. But what if I bump into him again u ask? Well, I’ll do the same thing I do every other time, exit using a different route. There’s no way I can control myself if I ever saw his face again. It’s better to stay away from temptations. Value your heart. Save it for someone who really deserves it.